by a baby who won’t sleep unless i’m right beside him, and by having no idea how i’m going to get more sleep at night
by a three year old that wants my attention constantly
by the house; simply keeping it at a level of functionality (dishes and laundry) let alone the extras (ie.washing the kitchen floor, cleaning the fridge etc etc etc)
by all the books i want to read, the things i want to learn, by everything on the internet; and being reminded on a daily basis that i can’t get to any of it
by trying to even do the bare minimum for my other job (the professional one)
by decisions to be made about how to do life after maternity leave
by how to figure out what’s good for my children when it comes to school
by friendships i want to nurture, and yet feel i have so little to give
by my age-old struggle with feelings of rejection and exclusion in relationships
by the guilt of just NEEDING from my husband all the time, and not finding it in myself to give him what he needs: the recognition for all he does do….all i want is more
by my relationship with food and my body
by my constant confusion about how to parent isaiah around issues of food and eating, among other things
by all the STUFF in our house
by the to do list i never get to
Things always look better in the light of morning, right.? Oh sleep come quickly.
p.s. i almost forgot to mention that i’m also overwhelmed by the death of tim bosma, the ongoing genocide/wars in sudan, syria etc, the boston marathon bombings, and the kermit gosnell evil.